Last weekend was quite great. Walaupun I tak expect pon tapi Alhamdulillah, it went well. Cuma, Sabtu lepas I had a litle arguement with Azrul.
I don't know why but I have this weird feeling when it comes to love and relationship.
I had experienced three unsuccessful relationships in the past, and I admit that I kinda phobia to start a new relationship. But I am strongly believe that I will get married one day, so I guess I should have a boyfriend. I don't know, in fact I am not really sure am I doing the right thing now.
In my latest break up with R, I have been cheated by him. R flirt with another girl on the net and I did give him a second chance, but things did not worked out. Break up lah, apa lagi.
R is getting married end of this year, not with the girl he flirt, but his best friend. I don't mind in fact I don't really care, I'm just happy for him.
What about me?
I know that I have a boyfriend. Namun, I sudah terlupa bagaimana nak bercinta? I just don't know how. really.
Generally, I am feeling insecure because I had bad experiences in my previous relationship and I always relate it to my current relationship with Azrul. Kesian kan. It's my bad tapi nak buat cam na.
My sayang Azrul,
I am sorry. I just need you to understand me and I promise things gonna be all right.
I love you, I really do.